On Sunday, I died to myself, and rose up in Christ through baptism.
It took me a while to really take the "plunge".
I was "saved" in 2007 a few months before I became pregnant with my son. While I was pregnant, I got married to my husband and became a wife. Once I had my son, something clicked in me to be the best mom and wife I could be. For me, the only way to do that was to walk "the walk". Since then it has been an ongoing battle between myself and the Lord. I kept fighting a fight I knew in my heart I would never win.
Until now.
I had seen my mother baptized while I was pregnant with my son and then a year ago saw my sister & cousin get baptized as well. I knew what it symbolized, and I think I was fighting with myself and what "the world" (i.e. my friends/loved ones/complete strangers) would think. For 3 years I kept making excuses for myself."I will do it when the time is right". "I don't want to get baptized and then be looked at as a hypocrite if I stumble.""I need to grow more as a christian". "I just don't think I am ready yet"."I will know when I am ready".
The more I put it off the more the Lord put it into my head that I needed him, and that I wasn't going to get through the storms of life without Him. And let me tell you, I have had many a share of storms in the last few years and I never thought they were going to end. I knew I needed something. I needed to die to myself and become a new woman in Christ. Not just for me, but for my husband & children. So that I could be their salt & light through the power of the Lord. So that I could get through the storms of life stronger and wiser. I needed to give myself fully and wholeheartedly to Him. Not half-heartedly and not half of myself. I was so tired of being stuck with one foot in the world, and one foot trying to walk with Jesus. I just couldn't do it anymore.
So I decided just a few days before that I would get baptized. Not because anyone told me to, but because I was ready. I was ready for a new me. I was ready for change and I was ready to face the world with the Armor of God and conquer anything that came in my way. Once I was put under water, I came up a new person. The water didn't change me though, the holy spirit did. Once I died to myself (baptism), I became new in Christ. It was an amazing feeling to know that I was made new and I could feel the change.
I was afraid that my friends or some unbelieving family members would make fun of me but I think it was the devil just trying to put doubt into my heart so that way I wouldn't do it. But thankfully, I told my friends and family and they were so supportive of me doing it, even the non believers. I am so blessed that I have friends and family wholove and support me, no matter what differences we have. It was an amazing day and I am so excited for what God has in store for me and my family.
Galations 2:20
"My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me."